/ Reflection /

“ Life can only be understood backward, but it must be lived forwards.”

The time I spent at the beach enabled me to grow. I felt inclined to reflect upon this. Summer entailed a lot of stressful moments. There were a lot of bumps in the road as I attempted to figure out my path. I was so focused on planning things out that I became overwhelmed at the sight of uncertainty. This connects with the fact that I am a go big or go home person. I give my all in everything I do. This mentality generalizes to my life decisions. I set unobtainable goals which cause me to get carried away with all of my aspirations. In doing so, I become burdened.
I was forced to be with my thoughts. Two months ago, I posted “Take Time To Do What Makes Your Soul Happy.” That day I was so relieved to gain clarity by realizing I needed a break from school. As desperately as I wanted to plow through and begin my new classes, I was unable to because there was a roadblock. I had been told my transcript had to be conferred, within a set time frame, in order to gain the scholarship that was being offered. Because my classes started immediately after my class ended, I was told many different things about my ability to smoothly transfer. Because of this, I delayed my start date. In doing so, I spent these past few weeks realizing how engulfed I had become in my schooling and how neglectful I had been to my emotional well-being. The roadblock forced me into a mode of self-reflection that, ultimately, has brought me into this moment of readiness. As I begin my new chapter at an all online college, I am at ease.

The bible states the following:

Jesus replied: you do not know what I am doing, but later you will understand”
~ John 13:7

Each moment of confusion has a meaning. I am grateful for my ability to find clarity when reflecting on my life path.



8 responses to “/ Reflection /”

  1. Becoming His Tapestry Avatar

    Great post, Kiki, you remind me of younger me 😂😂 oh those plans will get every time. Trust me as you grow and develop that relationship with the Lord, peace, clarity and security will follow. I’m praying for you, keep going forward

    1. growingthroughsomething Avatar

      Thank you so much for these sweet words! I am seeing leaps and bounds of growth as I endure more circumstances. It is definitely a struggle but I am certain that you are correct in your words of comfort! Blessings! Xoxo

  2. T. R. Noble Avatar

    Praise God for knowing better than us and helping us guide is closer to Him. 🙂 wonderful post!

    1. growingthroughsomething Avatar

      AMEN! Blessings! Xoxo

  3. Matthew Winters (Honest Thoughts from a Pastor) Avatar

    I love the practical application of Jesus’ statement in John 13. It’s a great reminder for a guy who tends to go through the motions in life many days.

  4. Tina Avatar

    I can relate to getting engulfed and forgetting to enjoy life. I was a go big person too, or a dream big person. But then God kept nudging me to dream small. I didn’t like this because I didn’t understand it. I loved to dream big. The further on I go I begin to understand it more. Right now, with my health issues, I could never handle big. God has other plans. I’m a run ahead of him kind of “kid.” So He has to pull me back and slow me down. ☺

    1. growingthroughsomething Avatar

      Yes! For me, it’s an ongoing reminder 😅 blessings!

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