/ Reflection /

“ Life can only be understood backward, but it must be lived forwards.”

The time I spent at the beach enabled me to grow. I felt inclined to reflect upon this. Summer entailed a lot of stressful moments. There were a lot of bumps in the road as I attempted to figure out my path. I was so focused on planning things out that I became overwhelmed at the sight of uncertainty. This connects with the fact that I am a go big or go home person. I give my all in everything I do. This mentality generalizes to my life decisions. I set unobtainable goals which cause me to get carried away with all of my aspirations. In doing so, I become burdened.
I was forced to be with my thoughts. Two months ago, I posted “Take Time To Do What Makes Your Soul Happy.” That day I was so relieved to gain clarity by realizing I needed a break from school. As desperately as I wanted to plow through and begin my new classes, I was unable to because there was a roadblock. I had been told my transcript had to be conferred, within a set time frame, in order to gain the scholarship that was being offered. Because my classes started immediately after my class ended, I was told many different things about my ability to smoothly transfer. Because of this, I delayed my start date. In doing so, I spent these past few weeks realizing how engulfed I had become in my schooling and how neglectful I had been to my emotional well-being. The roadblock forced me into a mode of self-reflection that, ultimately, has brought me into this moment of readiness. As I begin my new chapter at an all online college, I am at ease.

The bible states the following:

Jesus replied: you do not know what I am doing, but later you will understand”
~ John 13:7

Each moment of confusion has a meaning. I am grateful for my ability to find clarity when reflecting on my life path.


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  1. I can relate to getting engulfed and forgetting to enjoy life. I was a go big person too, or a dream big person. But then God kept nudging me to dream small. I didn’t like this because I didn’t understand it. I loved to dream big. The further on I go I begin to understand it more. Right now, with my health issues, I could never handle big. God has other plans. I’m a run ahead of him kind of “kid.” So He has to pull me back and slow me down. ☺

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