“Let GO and let GOD”
©This topic has been on my mind for a while and, while I haven’t fully grasped this concept, I am seeing this change of heart take precedence as life events are being altered.
I began this semester with heaviness in my heart and an unwelcoming burden upon me. I spent the last two years of college allowing myself to become engulfed in school in which education became my identity. I could not allow myself to rest or I was worried I would end up behind. While I acknowledge that part of this stemmed from a perpetuating cycle of life’s troubles hitting me upon the head, it still resulted in me being consumed with anxiety. With this, I began to LET GO. I was tired of holding on to this facade that I could somehow control my life by preparing each and every step. I had planned on starting back up with one class because my scholarship needed time to be processed. This class was a dread. I avoided it at all costs and I spent the time that I did work on the material dreading it. The teacher had given me an 80% on an assignment that I made one mistake on. I was upset because I thought the grade was rather harsh. I looked over her critique and pouted about it for a short bit and then I decided I was going to LET IT GO. I kept thinking about reaching out but I felt drained. I felt like it was a waste of time. A week or two passed and I had asked a question about the follow-up assignment in order to gain clarity. It crossed my mind that I may not have done as good as I thought. She wrote back, explaining the answer to my question and I proceeded to apply this knowledge to my project. A day or two later, I received another email from her stating that she had changed my grade. She had felt that I deserved 90% instead. Seeing this shocked me. I have had a fair share of teachers and, not once, has one of my professors reached out to change a grade. This moment sparked something within my spirit. A tiny little piece of my mind had a reality check.
One: I knew God was telling me to keep progressing with school.
Two: I had a feeling part of why she made the grade change was because I had “Let GO and Let GOD.”
In doing so, his presence overpowered anything that I could have OR could not have done. I realized that part of my problem was my overarching assumption that I could somehow control my future. This event showed me that God was taking control because, for once, without me even realizing it, I let Him.
I have been working on applying this to everyday events. I have been noticing His presence more each day. With this knowledge, comes peace. With this acceptance, comes a new level of freedom. I am still getting used to this mentality and I would be lying if I said it was easy for me BUT I am so very grateful that He revealed His presence and spoke to me in such a way.
I encourage you to “Let GO and Let GOD.” Start with something simple. See where it takes you. <3
“Those who leave everything in GOD’s HANDS will eventually see GOD’s HAND in everything”
I would love to hear your thoughts on this topic. Have you ever had any similar experiences?
© Mueller 2018